September 1st, 2017
I'm not sure how to feel. There is this complex feeling... a feeling that lingers in heart and mind as I stand in the back of the school gymnasium overlooking the backs of all my students. Just 2 years ago, I stood nervous on the side, anxious to give my first introduction to the school. Now, I stand as just another teacher, poised in the back, attempting to comprehend the opening speech of the second semester.
Everything is calm. A cool breeze blows, rustling the leaves in the trees. Its a relaxing sound really. Outside the trees are starting to change color as clouds float gently along, as if they had not a care in the world. The students are still, listening to the pearls of wisdom the principal gives in her opening speech. Autumn's aura is definitely in the air. It's definitely the start of a new semester.
Yet, as this is the start of a new semester, its also the start of the end for me. The thought that everything from now will be the last time I will experience it is... haunting. This place that I have learned to call home for the past 2 years has become a part of me. Knowing that I won't be here a year from now is killing me.
I have gone from a new ALT to a Sempai ALT to just another Japanese guy. I can definitely say "been there, done that," yet I feel like I have so much more to do here. The push and pull of emotions tug at my heart strings. My life in Japan has become a countdown...and there is nothing I can do about it.
Yet, on this Autumn day, a new wind blows. It's a wind that will carry my path on to new futures and new heights. While I am still conflicted about my thoughts on today, I know that the future is bright.
But for now, I want to take time to look back and thank those that have made my time here in Matsuyama, Ehime special. This page will be dedicated to those special people as a thank you.
So until next time...